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Meantime Girl

Got this off my multiply blog. No, I didn’t write it. I also reposted it from my friend’s blog, which she also got from somewhere else. It still applies to me after all these years. I guess I will always be a meantime girl…

What’s a meantime girl? Shes the one you call when you’re bored because she makes you laugh. She’s the one you talk to when you’re feeling down because she’s willing to lend an ear & be a friend. She’s not the one you call when you need a date to your company’s party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She’s the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find “The One”. You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime.

She’s not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don’t look at her as a “real” woman, either. She’s not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light. She’s too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She’s too understanding, too comfortable. She doesn’t make you feel nervous or excited the way a “real” woman does. But she’s cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you’re lonely or horny & need intimate female companionship, she’ll do just fine.

You don’t have to wine & dine her because she knows the real you already, & you don’t have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You’re not trying to get anything of substance out of her.She’s not easy, but you know that she cares about you & is attracted to you, & that she’ll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don’t have to explain yourself or the situation, that she’ll be able to cope with the fact that this isn’t the beginning of a relationship or that there’s any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her.

It won’t bother her that you’ll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, & go on a date with the woman you’ve been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She’ll settle for a goodbye hug & a promise to call her & tell her how the date went. She’s just so cool . Why can’t all women be like that?

But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don’t, because to you, the situation between the two of you isn’t important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it’s not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points & all the fun you two have, you don’t think shes good enough to spend any real time with.

Sure, its mostly her fault, because she doesn’t have to give in to your needs anyway; she could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you & her both know that she probably couldn’t pull it off. Maybe shes too short, or a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on her forehead, or is just a plain-looking person with a great sense of humor.

Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, & you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman. You’ll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, & she’ll laugh & make a joke about a smelly rental tux.

She doesn’t captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She’s safe. She doesn’t want to be the center of attention & turn the heads of everyone in the room.

But she wants to turn someones head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do. She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact,she probably has a bigger & better heart than any woman you’ve ever known because she’s had a front-row seat to “The Mess That Is Your Life”, and yet she likes you anyway. She obviously sees something worthwhile & redeeming in you because although you’ve given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.

Anyway, yeah. I’m a Meantime Girl. Been one more times than I care to admit. I don’t know the reason, really, and at this point I don’t even care. I just want to let every guy know who’s had the good fortune to have a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot. And someday we won’t be around.

 

 

 

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Ngayong gabi, malungkot ako.

Ngayong gabi, malungkot ako.

Biglang tumulo ang luha sa aking kaliwang mata nang walang abiso.

Parang nalulunod ako sa lungkot, at hindi ako halos makahinga.

Pero parang mas nilalamon ako ng takot.

Parang pinipisil ng takot ang puso ko.

Pero bakit? Bakit ganito ang nararamdaman ko?

Isa lang ang sigurado ko, ikaw ang dahilan ng lahat ng ito.

Wari ko’y pinaglalaruan mo ang damdamin ko.

Pinaglalaruan mo ata ako.

Hindi kita maintindihan.

Mahirap basahin ang mga ikinikilos mo.

Pero mas hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko.

Bakit ba ako sobrang apektado?

May nararamdaman na ba ako para sa’yo?

Malinaw naman sa’kin lahat ng sinabi mo.

Pero bakit ayaw sumunod ng isip ko?

Pinaniniwala n’ya akong may pag-asa tayo.

At pa’no na lang ‘pag bumalik s’ya?

Ako’y isasantabi mo na naman, iiwan, at kalilimutan?

Kaya ko ba? Kung ngayon pa lang ganito na?

Ayokong sumugal.

Hindi ko kayang makipagsapalaran.

Ikaw ba ay dapat ko nang iwasan?

Ako’y masasaktan lang din naman.

Gasgas na ang kwento, mahuhulog ako, masasaktan.

Iiyak, maglalasing, at magpipilit makalimot.

Paulit ulit lang ang lahat.

Nakakasawa na rin naman.

Kailangan kong mag-isip, kailangan kong mamili.

Hahayaan ko bang umusbong ang damdaming pinipigilan?

O tatalikod na lang at ibabaon sa limot ang ating kasalukuyan?

Basta ang alam ko,  ngayong gabi, malungkot ako…

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Cine Europa 15

I went to the EDSA Shangri-La Plaza mall last Saturday for some BDO business and to meet up with some friends. I had no clue that the 15th Cine Europa is already having its run. And it has begun since Thursday! Good thing I had to pass by this afternoon to get to an appointment in Ortigas. I got this flyer (are they still called flyers even if they’re not made of the usual glossy paper they use on magazines?) from this lady who was giving them out in the escalators goin’ up to the mall from the MRT station.

Cine Europa 15

If you’re new to this stuff, well, yeah, it is indeed free admission but you have to be in line really early since it’s on a first come, first served basis. The evening screenings of course have more viewers so you gotta make sure you’re there way ahead of the scheduled time. And this time there is also a raffle where if you’re lucky enough, get a round trip, economy class ticket to Europe!

Here is the back of the flyer where the participating movies, including the country where the movie if from, and the screening times are listed:

To help you decide which movies to pick, here is the list of those that will be shown tomorrow until Sunday, and their corresponding IMDb links:

September 11:

September 12:

September 13:

September 14:

September 15:

September 16:

There are 6 more days so let’s all head on out to Cinema 2 of the Shang Cineplex and try to watch at least one of the films. It’s nice to view foreign films once in a while and get a glimpse of another country’s culture through the movies they make. See you there!

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2012 Wish List

It’s almost my birthday month again (and Christmas ain’t too far ahead too) so it’s time to post another wish list. Yup, it’s time to be materialistic once again and silently hope (or pray, or beg, whatever works) that good souls are out there, willing to buy me gifts. Haha! So here goes…

1. Samsung Galaxy S3

I haven’t bought a new phone in ages. I think my Nokia E72 is almost 3 years old. It still works but it’s slowly deteriorating. For example, it no longer alerts nor vibrates when I get text messages. And the wall charger is busted. I can only charge through USB, while connected to a laptop. Hassle. Anyway, I want my S3 in white.

2. Longchamp Le Pliage

I used to own one. Well, not really. It was a gift, a Class A. I liked it so much because it works like magic. It doesn’t look that bulky but you can carry so much stuff in it. I haven’t bought the real thing because I always think it’s too expensive. But I think I just might give in this year. I’m still giving it a lot of thought too. If I do decide to get one, I’d buy the exact same thing as below.

3. Plueys

My friend is right, this has been on my list for ages but until now, I still haven’t convinced myself to actually buy a pair. I want them so bad but I’m forever debating with myself that they’re too expensive for rain boots. So let’s see. I’m definitely set on an Ooh La Lace pair. So you’d know what to get me. 😉

4. Swatch Burgundy Softness

I know I had another wish last year but since my uncle gave me an Anne Klein in a similar style, I decided I didn’t want that anymore. So instead I want this. I have a growing timepiece collection and this would definitely make a great addition to it, in the exact color please. Haha!

5. Incanto Charms

I smelled this on a former project mate and I instantly fell in love. With the scent of course, not with her! Haha! I’m not a fan of girly perfumes. I actually prefer men’s scents. But this one is absolutely perfect for my nostrils.

6. Burberry Summer

Another perfume that I want, that I almost bought when I was in Hong Kong last year, is Burberry Summer. I had to choose between this or Elizabeth Arden Green Tea Lavender and the latter won out. But I still haven’t forgotten that I also want to have this one.

7. Forever 21 Gift Cards

Well, Forever 21 gift cards aren’t so bad too. At least I’d get to choose what I really want and make sure they’re in my size. I still haven’t gotten over my love for F21 clothes. They’re just perfect.

8. Charles & Keith Wallet

Actually even if it’s not Charles & Keith as long as it’s the same style as the ones below. I prefer one with lots of card compartments, a zippered compartment for coins, and preferably with a space for pictures, but that’s not so important. Actually, I change my mind. I’d actually love it more if it’s Charles & Keith. Hahaha! 😀