I realize now how bad of a decision this is. I gave too much of myself too fast while you keep holding back. You will never be the one that stays and I can’t keep looking to you for the things I want, or the things that are ideal. Because right from the start you’ve already set the rules and determined up to how much you can give. And I can’t live like that. I want to be able to freely let my feelings flow and I should get the same from you. But I can’t and I won’t. So I guess it’s time to leave this as it is. A whirlwind romance of sorts. Could’ve been perfect but it will never be. It’s nothing but a temporary and fleeting happiness. A good while it lasts kind of fling. It’s another lesson in choosing and valuing myself. Because I am worth so much more than this. I deserve better than what you can give me. So let’s leave while we still have fond memories of each other. While there’s still some good feelings left. So that when we look back and remember, we will smile at the good times rather than cry at all the hurt it has caused us.
So there’s this viral thing going around Facebook where you list the 10 books that have stayed with you in some way. You’re advised not to think too much and just put whatever comes to mind. They need not be literary classics or international bestsellers, nor do they have to be the best or your favorites. As long as they had an effect on you in one way or another, you can put them on your list.
And since I didn’t wanna do it on Facebook, here’s my list (in random order):
- Love & Misadventure, Lang Leav
It’s not really a novel but rather a collection of Lang Leav’s poems. And i love it because i can relate to most of them. It’s like Lang Leave listened to my heart and wrote exactly what I was feeling, while some have captured perfectly the musings of my mind.
- Veronika Decides To Die, Paulo Coelho
This is the first Paulo Coelho book that I have read and I remember being so amazed at how Paulo was able to come up with the stuff in this book. I was an instant fan. I had to stop reading for a while to contemplate on his words and his views on insanity, urging me to form my own opinions on the matter.
- The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, Stephen Covey
I read the Highly Effective Teens version of this when I was in high school then now that I’m in the corporate world, I was tasked to present one of the habits in this book to our whole team.
- Love, Rosie, Cecelia Ahern
I remember that it was written in a way that made it seem like the characters are corresponding through letters. Or was it just one character writing letters? I don’t remember much but I know that this is my favorite Cecelia Ahern book and I started reading all her other books after this one.
- Dash & Lily’s Book of Dares, Rachel Cohn and David Levithan
It seemed so unreal and impossible, but really creative. It was a light read but it made me think too. It made me believe that even though what you wanted to happen didn’t happen, you must never lose hope because something else great may still happen. Something you didn’t expect, something you didn’t think you’d want, but something still perfect.
- Eleanor & Park, Rainbow Rowell
They were right, this book will take you back to high school. I felt like I was in high school again while reading it. Puppy loves and first loves swimming in my head. Oh, to be young and in love. I couldn’t let go of the ending too. I kept thinking about it for days, even months after. I even had to discuss it with someone who read it too.
- The Fault In Our Stars, John Green
I cried buckets while reading this. It was a different kind of love story and I loved it. This will always be a 5/5 for me. I already read it twice. The emotions were the same even for the second time around.
- The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho
After Veronika Decides To Die, I just had to find out what the fuss was about with his number one book. And I definitely wasn’t disappointed. This taught me that when you want something badly enough, the universe conspires to help you achieve it. And that the treasure lies within.
- The Silver Linings Playbook, Matthew Quick
Another love story that’s a little different, in as much as The Fault In Our Stars is different. But I think I mostly remember the movie because J. Law was in it haha.
- The Perks of Being A Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky
It had unrequited love, it had a twist, it had coming of age, it had wit, it had almost everything. I want to feel it too, feel infinite and just be young and worry free.
You know those marriage pacts between friends? The ones that go like, “When we turn 40 (or whatever age they think of) and we’re both still single, let’s just get married.”? I don’t really know how it happened, how people were able to come up with this idea. And it’s become such a popular notion among my peers. The problem with this is that it makes people settle for being a last resort, an option, a safety net, a fallback. Because why do you need to wait for a certain age for you to get together? So when you have exhausted all your options then you’ll settle for me? What’s wrong with being with me now? Am I not good enough at this point? Sorry but this concept is so wrong on so many levels.
You are magical.
You, who make my dreams come true.
There’s no one like you.
Green, orange, and blue.
These are the colors of you.
Bright and full of life.
Tried to walk away.
Your pull is too strong for me.
Just like gravity.
The wind gives me chills.
I see you in the shadows.
Time just seemed to stop.
I hug you tighter.
You seem to push me away.
Then I let you go.
Suddenly she’s there.
She came to take you away.
You just up and left.